A Letter to My Mothers
In my room of darkness
You came to rescue me,
I guess it was to dark
Too hard for you to see me.
I hung myself upside down
On my little bed,
Talking to my fairies
Escaping from the dread.
Soon your castle crumbled
And you came tumbling down,
You spat at me, words so cruel
I thought I might just drown.
You were not my beautiful mother
For you are , so ugly inside,
You cut my heart in two
On my knees I had to crawl.
I can forgive a lot of things
For this I've had to learn,
I needed you so badly
But all you did was turn.
Turn away from me
Not once at birth, but twice,
I cannot understand
Was it so hard, to be nice?
Now I am confused, rejected by adoption
But once again by you,
I only wanted one mom, A mom who would love me
But neither of you do.
I cannot take the pain again
From either of you two,
I guess I have to build my wall
So neither can get through.
By: Ayesha A. (An Adoptee)